I went to mom right away and asked her “Maa how did you feel when Dad came to see you?”
Maa replied, “I really liked him when I saw him, and I think he did too. So, when it was yes from both the sides, I was very happy.”
I said “Hmmm, OK.”
When Maa said how she felt when she met Dad, I thought I might feel that way when I start speaking with Prakash. So, technically I should feel surprised in a positive way when he message me.But in contrary, I was feeling scared. I did not want to reply him. I wanted to undo him messaging me, so I ignored the message. Plugged on my earphones and played my favourite songs.
I felt a lot better as those songs remind me of happy times when I was young.
Few seconds later I got another message tanggggg…… It was from him again “Prakash here. How are you?”
I felt more suffocated with his messages. I did not know what to do. So, I switched off the phone, came downstairs and tried to sleep.
The next morning, I woke up with a severe headache because I could not sleep properly. Got ready for office although I did not want to. Mom asked me to have breakfast, I denied saying I have an early morning meeting and went to office. I did not want to speak to anyone. My phone was still switched off. I reached office, opened my system. I checked my mailbox there were few regular task emails. I closed the tab and opened HR portal to apply for sick leave. I applied for leave, my manger who sits right beside me asked, “You should not have come to office, you don’t look ok.” I said “Yeah, Dheeraj! I should not have. Anyway, I am leaving now.” He said “Take care, keep me posted. Take Sick leave tomorrow if you don’t feel alright.”
I said, “Sure, See you.” And left.
I took a cab (Not Ola or Uber) and asked him to drive me to a park nearby. I did not want to go home. My phone was still switched off. I asked myself why the hell am I reacting this way when I know this is going to happen sooner than later.
After calming myself and I took out the phone from my bag and switched it on. There was 1 more message from Prakash. “Let me know when you are free will call you.”
I, gathering all my courage replied to him, “Hi!!, Yeah sure.”
Went to a restaurant near by ordered Panner Makhni, Naan and Gulab Jamun.
Felt good, the food was good, and ambience was also quite great.
Since I took SL and my parents didn’t know neither do I want them to know, I booked a cab and went to shopping mall.
Window shopping is a real therapy. It was now 5pm IST, time to go home. Booked a cab again and reached home.
I freshened up and had a good bowl of tomato corn soup. Tanggggg….. “Call?” a message from Prakash…
Stay tuned to know what my reaction and what I did after that…………….